the world has its shine, but i would drop it on a dime for you

so its time for another frank sinatra lyric. this week it's "One for my baby (and one more for the road)". enjoy.

It's quarter to three
There's no one in the place
Except you and me

So set em' up Joe
I got a little story
You oughta know
We're drinkin' my friend
To the end of a brief episosde

Make it one for my baby
And one more for the road

I got the routine
So drop another nickel
In the machine
I'm feelin' so bad
Wish you'd make the music
Pretty and sad
Could tell you alot
But you've gotta' be true to your code

So make it one for my baby
And one more for the road

You'd never know it
But buddy I'm a kind of poet
And I've got alot of things to say
And when I'm gloomy
Simply gotta listen to me

Till its all talked away

Well, that's how it goes
And Joe I know
You're gettin' pretty anxious to close
So thanks for the cheer
I hope you didn't mind,
My bend in your ear

This torch that I've found
must be drowned
Or it soon might explode.

So make it one for my baby
And one more for the road
That long, long road

Oh, I just wish someone would try to hurt you so I could kill them for you.

today someone told me that my great grandma is in the hospital
she's not digesting food for some reason and they don't know why.
she went into surgery in the morning and i haven't heard anything since.
I need to talk to this but it seems like there's no one there to listen, which is what lead me here.
i love my great grandma so much.
she possesses the sort of unrequited kindness that is so rare these days,
and her home is one of the only places in the world where i feel truly loved.
she really is an amazing woman.
i know it shouldn't have, but hearing all this made me start thinking about death.
there are very few things i would die for in this world,
my family, a small handful of close friends, and then i got to you.
it's weird. at first i thought it was a no brainer, then i started over analyzing it.
i started thinking "would i really take a bullet for her, after everything that's happened?"
that's what got me thinkin, cause i've shot a gun, and bullets ain't no joke.
worse, i accidentally pondered on whether you would do the same for me
which really is a no brainer, but not in the fun way.
but i had a realization.
it's not about whether you would or not, because that doesn't matter.
what it's about is the fact that i couldn't live in world without you.
you are the single most intriguing and amazing person i have ever had the pleasure to meet
and you have changed my life in ways you may never understand.
my conclusion? yes, i would die for you.
so, uh, next time you've got a bullet coming your way, holla atchya boi.

[btw, the title to this post is a frank sinatra quote i read a long time a go that seemed fitting, i thought i should mention]

someday our names will be written in lights on broadway

oh! how well must you torment me?
present me with hope, masquerade as my dreams
yet return to my imagination as quick as you came.
you know me too well brer rabbit,
soon you'll have me leaping into briar patches.
sometimes you seem like a comic book villain,
always scheming, plotting my demise.
nay, curse the heavens for placing such wickedness in my thoughts!
it doesn't matter anyway,
we both know I'm no superhero.
my heart may be made of gold
but my mind is as dense as lead,
my heart could lead me a thousand miles to you
but my thoughts would way me down with each step.
they say said journey starts with one step,
well i just took two back and one forward's just gonna lead me in circles.

"I'm an actor, frank, I just want to act, and cheat on my wife... is that so much to ask?"

So, I haven't made a real post in ages, but i still just feel like a fraud and not a poet (10 points if u get the reference) so I cant in good conscience write something that I don't really feel. I'm going to use this time to introduce a segment that is very dear to me, frank sinatra song of the week. guess what it is? to kick it off i'm doing two songs this week, "they can't take that away from me" and "someone to watch over me". enjoy.

There are many many crazy things
That will keep me loving you
And with your permission
May I list a few

The way you wear your hat
The way you sip your tea
The memory of all that
No, no, they can't take that away from me

The way your smile just beams
The way you sing off key
The way you haunt my dreams
No, no, they can't take that away from me

We may never never meet again, on the bumpy road to love
But I'll always, always keep the memory of

The way you hold your knife
The way we danced till three
The way you've changed my life
No they can't take that away from me
No they can't take that away from me

We may never, never, never meet again, on the bumpy road to love
Still I'll always, always keep that memory of

The way you hold your knife
The way we danced till three
The way you've changed my life
No, no, they can't take that away from me
No they can't take that away
They won't take that away
Cause they can't take that away
From me

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There's a somebody
I'm longing to see
I hope that she
Turns out to be
Someone who’ll watch over me

I'm a little lamb
Who's lost in the wood
I know I could
Could always be good
To one who'll watch over me

Although I may not be the man
Some girls think of
As handsome
But to her heart
I'll carry the key

Won't you tell her please
To put on some speed
Follow my lead
Oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Won't you tell her please
To put on some speed
Follow my lead
Oh how I need
Someone to watch
Over me